Sometimes, the right lesson comes at just the right time. Last night I walked upstairs and was furious as I looked down on the floor and noticed not one, but several gatorade stains all over the carpet. I was still pretty angry today as my son tried to make conversation while digging through his Easter basket. I couldn’t help but think he didn’t even deserve one on this Easter Day. I was already feeling sad that we would be away from family for another holiday while my husband was stuck at work.
Then, it happened. That lesson that would open up my heart and help the anger fade away. While we we’re praying in church this morning for parish intentions, the mention of a little boys passing just about brought me to my knees. As the tears filled my eyes I couldn’t help but think although carpets are replaceable, a four year old boys life that has been ripped away by cancer is not. What a powerful lesson that immediately forced me to see last night and this mornings events in a new perspective.
This little boy was diagnosed over a year ago and every week the priest would mention him during intentions. Although I never knew him, every night I would include him in my prayers. I guess hearing of his passing was bitter sweet for me. I can’t help but shed a tear for the pain of those loved ones that will have to go on without him. But now, his pain and suffering has come to an end. I can’t help but picture him smiling above us. Fly little guy, fly. And today, I will count my blessings…
Thank you once again to Pish’s Blog of Loveliness for choosing me as one of her nominees for The Beautiful Blogger Award. As I’ve said before, her blog is one of my favorites and near and dear to my heart. You can check it out by clicking on this link blogofloveliness.wordpress.com. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
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7 Things About Myself
1) I love Krispy Kreme Donuts
2) Hawaii is one of my favorite places
3) I have a new found love for yoga
4) I am more aggressive than passive aggressive 😉
5) I am a nurse
6) I proudly drive a minivan
7) My heart is actually bigger than mouth, and I am extremely outspoken 🙂
Now, for those of you that like to participate, I would like to list my nominees. There are some blogs where you, the writers, really put yourselves out there. I love your openness and honesty and enjoy all your blogs. If you dont want to participate, just ignore this award, otherwise, hopefully it will generate some traffic to your sites. The are many readers out there who I think will appreciate your sites.
I can’t help but wonder what the majority of people think about our world today. People are all over the place, busy, flustered , angry, confused, tired. They seem to use up so much of their energy fighting for the world to be the way they want it to be while making tons of enemies along the way. This us vs. them society is not a very happy or rewarding one. People are always on the defense because for many the country is undoing or down playing some core values that have somewhat defined people and cultures for some time. What I find excruciating is the blindness that goes on with people judging people, groups judging groups. For example, those in favor of gay marriage are judging those who are not as intolerant, and are actively professing that people who aren’t gay should mind their own business, thus judging. Then the supporters of heterosexual marriage are fighting to ban gay marriage and judging the lifestyle as immoral. I will say this. I was born and raised Catholic. It should be no surprise that I do not stand in favor of gay marriage. However, I have gay friends who I care very deeply about. I support their happiness but at the time feel comfortable enough with who I am to not sacrifice my own beliefs at the expense of myself or others. In the end, the only one accountable for my soul is me. That is one of the few rights that no government, no amount of time, and no substantial number of people can take away from me. My beliefs, my opinions, my values, and my morals separate me from everyone else. They are part of who I am. I don’t care if schools teach religion or evolution. I will provide my children with what I know and what I believe. They will learn everything else outside our home. Its not worth my time or effort to argue what should or should not be taught. As far as Im concerned, no one can prove either to me as matter of fact. I believe the true way to change the world is by starting with yourself. That is the only person you have have control over anyway. If you are a good leader, and someone people admire, people will follow. Lead by example. There is no argument around strong enough to prove someone their beliefs are wrong. Put your time and effort into something that can make a difference. Practice random acts of kindness, and compassion every day. Look people in the eyes, even if you disagree, and show them your respect peacefully with a loving heart. That is what bridges the gap and believe me it’s going to take a lot of people to see a difference. Find peace within so you can spread it outward. Stop fighting, and name calling and start respecting and listening. Your word is not Gods word or anyone else’s word for that matter. Stop trying to prove you’re right and just know if your truth feels right to you than that is enough. We cannot shove our values or lack of down other peoples throats. Judging is judging. And I haven’t found any one side on either issue that judges less than the other. Look at yourselves and please get it under control. Know that what is happening is not working. Don’t change your end goal or destination, just find a new path and a better plan that is healthier for everyone around us. No one really wants to take away the rights of others, they just don’t want to sacrifice their own. Why does it have to be win- lose anyway? Cant we find a way to disagree respectfully and peacefully. The judging back and forth in the media, on Facebook, in conversations all around me in disheartening. Lately, I have made a decision. I’ve always said this crazy quote to myself anytime I didn’t want to take part in something anymore, “if you don’t want to play the game, take yourself out of it.” That is exactly what I have started to do. Remove myself from the damaging actions and words that entitle this terrible disease and choose a way to provide a new perspective and healthier actions. I really cannot believe in my heart that people are just plain mean, miserable jerks. Every one of us has good inside. We are all made up of the same things. I don’t care what country you grew up in, or what the color is of your skin. Why can’t we start to focus on our similarities and not our differences. Turn the tv off, put the paper down and stop engaging in hate. We are being led there like cattle only to be butchered in the end. Are we not better and smarter than this? For awhile I gave up. I hated people and didn’t want to be anywhere around them. That is when I found this new group of people or perhaps maybe they found and rescued me. Their light, and kindness, and desire to love has warmed my once bitter heart. I am so grateful for them. It is nothing they try and do, it is simply who they are. This new movement by a few strong, positive individuals that believe they can and will make this world a better one, are making changes one by one every day. They are not doing it by arguing political views, religious beliefs, or engaging in the racial disaster that we seem to find ourselves in today. This group of people make small changes in themselves that eventually spread out and into all the people they come in contact with. They are like a positive contagious disease of kindness and tolerance and respect for all others, but never for one second sacrifice their own beliefs and convictions. Give it a try. We have to break this damaging cycle that is causing hate, and the most sad and damaging of all division. Get over the past. Be here in this world today. We cannot change the past and do we have to punish everyone who walks this Earth now that was not responsible. Please, see beyond color, blame, revenge, hate, religion, political views, sexual preference and individual opinions. If you focus on the bad and division, the universe will give you more of it. Instead, focus on love, healing, forgiveness, and the human-ness we all share. My pain is your pain, my joy is your joy. I believe we all want a peaceful and loving world. You do have a choice. You CAN make a difference.
I saw this quote today by Rick Warren and felt compelled to share these words:
Our culture has accepted two huge lies. The first is that if you disagree with someone’s lifestyle, you must fear or hate them. The second is that to love someone means you agree with everything they believe or do. Both are nonsense. You don’t have to compromise convictions to be compassionate.
I believe this world can be a better place. It only takes the right people and the right words to turn it around. Will you be one of those people that make a difference? Time will tell….
Where does the time go? What did I miss while I was looking away? One day I was holding this tiny baby boy in my arms and in the blink of an eye I woke up and he was already 11. I can’t help but wonder who he will be in this world. He is smart and kind and takes the time to make others feel important. I love how he yells, “have a great day mom!” as he walks out the front door. I love the way he asks if I’m okay when he sees me walk into the chair. I love the way he extends has hand to help a kid from another team off the floor in the middle of a basketball game. I love that he notices the little things like a new flower blooming in the sun or a penny all alone in the middle of a parking lot. I love that he drags the garbage can up the steep driveway every Monday without being asked. I am so proud of him and so blessed to have raised such a sweet young man. I wonder if he knows how proud I am about the things that really matter. The little notes, the lingering hugs, the way he looks back at the car and waves at least 5 times as he walks into school. I love how he apologizes when he knows he’s done something wrong. I have slowed life down as much as I can these last few months. I am trying my best to be in each moment and bottle them up, to embed them in my mind so they will always be there in the years ahead. I feel like I missed some of the details rushing around from here to there. I have taken my life back. At the end of the day, what is more important than being in each moment with the people you love. I sometimes wish I could stop time. There are some moments that you just wish you could freeze. This day, the day my baby boy was born is one of those days. I wish we could linger here for awhile, age 11, watching him become a young man in between moments of just plain silliness. I love his spirit..It is so big and full of love it could fill the tallest skyscraper. His laughter is so deep and heartfelt it could make even the most miserable chuckle along with him. He is contagious and his playful spirit brings happiness and smiles to everyone who crosses his path. Happy birthday sweet boy! I hope you never change, because you really are perfect just the way you are…
I wanted to say how grateful I am to theverybesttop10.wordpress.com for his wonderful inspiring post about the top10 kitkat cakes. I don’t know how this idea got by me, but I have to say my sweet boy sat excitedly by my side and helped decorate his birthday cake 1 m&m at a time. If you haven’t made one of these fun little cakes yet, I highly recommend you give it a try. It was not only fun, but also a great opportunity for some mother-son bonding. Looking forward to diving into it tonight! I’m sure it will taste as fantastic as it looks!
Last night I traveled back in time. No, I am not some genius that has finally invented a time machine. My time travel involves something more simple…music! I watched Rock of Ages last night and couldn’t stop myself from jumping up and throwing a fist or two to the beat of the music. I can only imagine how crazy I may have appeared to my neighbors if they caught a glimpse of my crazy hair flying back and forth violently like I was possessed or something as I showed my daughter what we used our hair for back in the day. I’d even like to tell you I didn’t attempt swinging around my bed post in unison with the pole dancing scenes, but I just couldn’t help myself. My husband stared awkwardly at me, eyes wide open and not the way I envision he would gawk at some hot girl that danced on a pole for a living. My daughter however was completely amused. I may even have gotten a fist up pump or two while she matched me word for word in almost every song. Who knew Glee was singing all the old cool songs from the 80’s. I was amazed she knew the music so well. I
love that music from a certain era can take me back to a time that was so fun all those years ago and for at least a moment or two, can actually make me feel like I am that energetic teen I once used to be. The movie itself was absolutely awful, but the music was fantastic! Lucky for me, as soon as it ended, HBO played it again! Music from the 80s was fun. I’m looking forward to downloading some of my old favorites soon. What an great pick me up on a day I really needed one.