I remember 10 months ago when I started my blog. For as long as I can remember, I had secretly been fantasizing about having one. At the time, I thought I knew the reasons why . However, over the course of this last year I discovered the reasons were deeper than I initially imagined.
I want to be heard. We all do. Sometimes though, we fail to speak up or react so passionately to the issues that really matter to us, that our words and perspective get lost somewhere amidst our reaction. This describes me perfectly. My tone sometimes drowns out my point, so initially I thought this would be a great way to express myself in a way readers could listen. I sometimes look at things differently than most, and I thought this would be a great way to get people to consider an alternative to their initial thoughts.
Now, a year later I realize that this is my therapy. It’s sorta like yoga, a place I can go and dump everything on my mat. Only this is so much better. I can go back and read what I’ve written and see my own growth. I remind myself of my own lessons, but most importantly I am leaving behind my existence. It is my mark that I have been here. It is a window to my soul and my imprint on life. It holds my stories, and lessons, and memories in one little space. It is a place that holds my pain, my struggles, my learning, and some of my best memories. It is about the people I love who are important to me. Someday, they too can go back and read stories about important days in their lives. It is a place I feel safe to express myself. A place I can let go of everything that’s bothering me and make permanent everything that is meaningful in my life.
Today is one of those important days. Kayleigh and I got in the car at 7:20 and made our 20 minute ride to the orthodontist singing Christmas tunes the whole way. It sure beats that other stuff she usually forces me to listen to that puts me in a horrible mood. Today, after 2 years, she gets her braces off. I still remember the day she got them on like it was yesterday. That’s how life is. In the blink of an eye, years pass by. Write it all down. Take time to enjoy every moment and then relive it by putting it down in your own words. Revisit the days of your life from time to time and remember to stay present. Moments pass in a flash so give them your attention so that you will be able to remember them vividly. That is why I blog. To tell the story of my own life, and give each day the time and focus that it needs. Just don’t go through the moments, bask in every one of them. Blogging has become part of who I am and I am so very grateful I had the courage all those months ago to take the first step. Will you join me?