Who Are You?

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How are you feeling today? If you had to choose one word to describe who you are based on the way you are feeling right now, who are you? Give yourself a name. Are you love, peace, hate, anger? If I didn’t believe that we carry around energy and transmit it wherever we go, I sure do believe it today. I went to yoga this morning and we worked on opening our heart chakra. I spent an hour and a half breaking down protective barriers of my heart and opening myself to love and receive love from others. It took exactly 2 minutes after class ended to receive my first test. That is what yoga teaches us, that everyone who comes into our life is there to teach us a lesson. We are told that it is easy to love people who are lovable but how do you fend when you are trying to love someone who doesn’t seem lovable at all?

I wrote a post a few weeks ago about kindness. It has changed titles several times. A woman sent me a message telling me I had to change the wording of the title of my post because she owned the copyright to particular words. Today, weeks later, I received another threatening reminder even after I changed the title immediately days ago. As I left that class feeling all open, I checked my email and bam! Lesson one was staring me right in the face. I felt like I was under attack. Did this woman not even notice my title had changed because she was so focused on projecting her anger and aggression toward me? I responded by asking her politely to stop contacting me and wished her many blessings. Soon after, I came home and was filled with aggression too. I let that woman fill me up with so much of her anger that I became it. I couldn’t believe it. Her misplaced aggression was passed onto another innocent victim through my misplaced aggression. This energy thing is a tricky concept. It is hard to find the perfect balance of giving and receiving. No one can steal your peace. Peace is a calm that resides in each and everyone of us but anger is triggered by more anger. It’s a chain reaction. Next time I hope I will remember to breathe and that people’s words and behaviors are mostly about them and little about me. I need to calmly remind myself to choose peace and forgiveness and to be more responsible for the energy I carry around. I would never intentionally pass around a sour apple so I must think before I react.

So, let’s hear it. Who are you today? I’m ashamed.

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13 thoughts on “Who Are You?

    • I hope soon you will be unstuck. Thanks for playing along. Don’t you think if we did introduce ourselves with the name of how we really feel about ourselves that maybe people would be more understanding and compassionate? Glad you stumbled on the post today. Sometimes when I read the right post at the right time, it makes a big difference in my day. Thanks for the comment 😉

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      • 🙂 I guess I’m stuck by my own choice, since it’s a work issue. Compassion has been a real issue for me lately. Perhaps it’s because of some of the people I come in contact with because of my job. I feel as if I’ve lost faith in humanity, and look first for the worst, instead of the best, in people. So many people I come in contact with are drug addicted, some are homeless due to life choices. I can’t find it in my heart to feel compassion for someone who has no money yet spends their rent on crack. How do I restore my soul? Is it possible? There’s a fine line between being a realist or a cynic, and I crossed it long ago. Tough to admit… Thanks for listening!

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      • That’s always tough on the soul. I go through phases where I feel a similar way and it wipes me out. I don’t want to see the world that way but I can’t seem to fight my way back to my compassionate, loving side. That is usually when I have to take better care of myself…love myself a little bit more. The light goes dim for awhile and you have to be patient. It absolutely stinks but eventually if you are patient, you will come out on the other side. I believe we are tested at times and it forces us to learn things about ourselves that are not pretty. We are only human though and like it or not we cannot be programmed to be loving and compassionate all the time. No, we should not judge but years of our lives we were surrounded by just that. It’s hard to not resort or sink down to those behaviors. For me, when my heart and actions are in conflict with this perfect person I am striving to be, my insides become pure turmoil. You will be okay. Just observe the way you feel and don’t judge it. Don’t resist it or the conflict will become worse. Just do your best at work and go easy on yourself. Take my hand…I will do my best to pull you out of this rut my friend 😉 it will be okay

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      • Thank you, thank you for those words!! They made my day. I got cursed at this morning for evicting someone, a mom with a child and non working boyfriend for panhandling. Worst part of it… the 7 year old daughter was seen panhandling over the w/e. And admitted it, even though I pulled the mom aside to talk to her in private. The mom just splayed the business all over the office… I had no intention of asking her to leave when I started talking to her. Just wanted to warn her. I pray for that child, sometimes, maybe that’s all I can do! Thank you for the encouragement…

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