Sit Back and Relax

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I have a distant memory of a time long ago when I was a young girl. The need and urgency to lay out the day did not exist back then. The hours and minutes would be welcome in their own time, one at a time, with no need to rush them along. These days, now that I am grown, I feel unsettled when the minutes lack any sense of structure. It is hard to comfortably sit back and just let it be. I feel uneasy not preparing for the details of the day. I guess that’s what adulthood does, makes us so responsible that we lose the ability to loosen our grip on the stifling reigns of responsibility even for a small snippet of time. Even as I sat eating my breakfast, I was already consumed by what we would be having for lunch and dinner. I spend so much time planning for every detail that I lose the ability to take a moment to relax. Time to make some big changes. I can’t go on living this way. Nobody should. The best moments of all are the ones we are truly present for, not the ones where we bring the past to the future or waste the one we are in thinking about what is yet to come. So, please join me in my new journey to finding a path that helps me let go of my need to control. Sit with me as a passenger where I willingly choose to take my hands off the wheel and sit back and enjoy the ride. Who knows what we may discover on the way.

14 thoughts on “Sit Back and Relax

  1. I’m with you all the way on this one. Two years ago I lost complete control of my life and have yet to regain it and don’t know if I want it back. I lost 6 family members, including my Mom and the murder of my son-in-law. Then I fell getting out of my swimming pool and broke my pelvis, hip joint and knee joint in the other leg. Six surgeries, fibromyalgia, and three years later… I’ve forgotten what control means…

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    • Wow…that is a lot to take on for anyone, especially you. I am so sorry. I can’t imagine what it would be like to have no choice but to surrender to and accept circumstances like that. God bless. You are a woman of amazing faith and strength. One to be admired for sure.

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      • How very kind of you to say this! The only reason I told you was to may look at control from a different perspective. There are good things about control and then you can swing all the way to Narcissistic tendencies. I think Life is happier when you purposely, freely, and lovingly, give those you love control over things that really matter to them and let want you to keep control over things that matter really matter to you. Love is giving, and taking. It won’t work if the others do not care about your happiness. In which case there are two roads. One is goodbye and go down the road of loneliness… or sit down and try to compromise and have a real heart to heart talk. If they won’t talk… goodbye. Life is too short for bad drama. If it’s your child… (been there) you have to wait until they are of age and then give them their walking papers. It is tough love but life is hard and they are choosing to hurt you and don’t care. Sad is real and hurt is hard!

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      • Hurt really is hard. I think you touched on something very important. We all have those quirky things that are important to us. It is so important for love ones to tolerate and respect the little things that mean little to them but so much to you. And of course it needs to be reciprocated. I love a new perspective! Thank you for offering me one today πŸ™‚

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  2. So true. I think I was pretty young when I lost that sense of living in the moment, but I sure would love to get it back. I think that constant planning stuff is anxiety, feeling a loss of control, which is ironic since I really don’t have the control I imagine.

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