Don’t equate your self-worth with how well you do things in life. You aren’t what you do. If you are what you do, then when you don’t … you aren’t.
I repeat this quote to myself every time I allow someone to define and judge me for what I do or don’t do. I am so much more than my college degree. I am more than a mom, a wife, a daughter, my position or lack of. I am a human being, unique and beautiful despite what others may choose to see. I have value. I am amazing for who I am on the inside, the outside and everything in between. I am worthy. I am amazing for who I am not for what I do.
So I had no idea what to write about today since the letter for the A to Z challenge is W but lucky enough, the words fell into place. One thing I realized today is that when you have been emotionally asleep for quite a while, walking through Vegas is just the place to wake you up. The sights, the sounds, the people watching are really invigorating. I took off on my own this morning exploring and checking things out. I wondered how different this Monday would feel if I was at home doing the same old same old. I know I’ve said this before but it is worth saying again. It is so important to change things up and not fall into the trap of repeating the same day over and over again. It is so amazing to have something on your calendar to look forward to and traveling makes everyone feel good. Just being somewhere else can leave you feeling so free, inspired, rejuvenated, healed. So, walking really is good for the soul and when you take a brisk walk in Vegas on a cool morning before the crowds hit the streets, there really is nothing better.
I was riding home today when it really hit me. Sometimes to appreciate the sunshine we have to spend some time in the rain. That is how depression feels. You are stuck in the storm and you have no other choice then to live in the darkness. Today I felt happy, really, really happy for the first time in a very long time. That dread, that doom and gloom was left behind as I glanced in my rear view mirror and left it behind. One thing I know for sure is when you struggle with depression, feeling happy, really happy is a blessing from God when it finally comes along. I can’t help but wonder if feeling so sad is a blessing in disguise because when happiness finally bites you on the backside, there are no words to describe the appreciation you feel. The bottom line is there will be good days and there will be bad days. There is a reason and a purpose for both. But when you get a good day, embrace it. Be grateful and feel the sun on your face. The rain, the storm will eventually pass and then you can bask in the sun again.
“They blame those who remain silent, they blame those speak much, they blame those who speak in moderation. There is none in the world who is not blamed.”- Buddha
Thought this one was worth sharing. Do you play the blame game?
My daughter told me a story about a misunderstanding she had with a friend today that left the friend in tears. Tears mom….really so annoying. Those were her words. I tried my best to explain to her that when people are hurt, especially sensitive people, they cannot help it if the tears start to flow. I urged her to respect the sensitivity of others and to not disregard it because she didn’t see a reason to be upset. It is in my instinctual nature to share in someone’s pain. When I see someone who is genuinely distraught, my heart breaks right along with them. I am trying to teach her that if someone feels hurt, she needs to accept and respect their feelings. The only thing worse than feeling hurt is someone, especially a friend, telling you you shouldn’t feel that way.
People who are not sympathetic, understanding and compassionate are just plain ugly. I don’t care how beautiful you are on the outside, if you are insensitive to the feelings of others, you are ugly period.
What about you? Do you know anyone who is ugly?
The seed of suffering in you may be strong, but don’t wait until you have no more suffering before allowing yourself to be happy.
Thich Nhat Hanh
When I read this quote, it completely changed the way I look at myself. I have been on this quest lately to find myself and work on some painful issues that have been holding me back from my own happiness. I am working hard, trying to let go of what was and what will be and simple just be. Happiness isn’t on the other side of this or the other side of that. Happiness isn’t waiting around the next corner. Happiness is right now underneath those feeling that are drowning it out. Be happy now. That is how we are meant to be.