KNOWING THE RIGHT THING IS ONLY THE FIRST STEP. DOING IT IS ANOTHER.
There are days I loathe myself.
Moments I resent the brokenness inside of me that reaches out to break another.
I regret the moments I take things a step further than I should, times when my anger spills over out of control.
I ache over words I should never have spoken. The kind of words that leave a lasting scar.
I regret the days I try and do too much, not leaving a single ounce of energy for myself.
Sometimes I’m just mean and that part of me takes the wheel and I cannot find the breaks.
Some days I resent being that person everyone can count on.
Need something? I’ll get it.
Forgot something? I’ll bring it.
Eventually I break when someone’s irresponsibility puts a tremendous burden on me that I don’t deserve to own.
I think people forget I am human too.
I get tired.
I get angry.
I am broken and I am trying to hold myself together the best I can.
Today I will repeat to myself , Be Better. You’ve got this.
Today I will practice forgiveness.
Today I will try my best not to make the mistakes of yesterday.