When You Can’t Find Your Voice Anymore

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Sadly, I am learning the result of accommodating everyone in my life. I have spent so many years trying to keep the peace and make everyone else happy that finally I have lost my own voice. I cannot even hear it anymore and I can’t help but wonder if it even tries to speak. Everything has become a negotiation. Just this morning I wanted the family to go for breakfast and everyone had an attitude or conditions. Being a mom is not always easy and often times it is downright hurtful. I wait all week for a tiny slice of time for us to be together but someone always throws a stick in the spoke until the bike has a tragic accident. It’s broken and today I feel sad and broken but instead of sitting around feeling sorry for myself, I will go out and do something that makes me feel good. The others can stay home and be in good company with their cell phones, computers, attitudes and conditions and I will simply carry on. No sense throwing myself in the middle and crying victim. I am in charge of my own destiny and sometimes it is necessary to leave everyone behind and follow on my own path. As for being a woman, I have to stop using that as an excuse. I swear it is almost innate to make everyone feel important and included but you know what I’ve realized? It’s necessary to include myself in that behavior as well. Time to find my voice and make it strong again. Time for some conditions of my own. Time to make some changes starting right now. Wish me luck.

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2 thoughts on “When You Can’t Find Your Voice Anymore

    • I actually went to the gym and walked a few miles. I usually walk everyday because it calms me but the last 2 days I abandoned walking to find clothes for my daughters senior pictures next weekend and to help her find a prom dress. I need to say yes to me more and no to everyone else. I just don’t understand why everyone makes things miserable. It’s their way or the highway. When did that become the norm with people? It’s so sad to me 😦 And I need to stop being readily available when everyone else “fits me in” if and when it’s convenient.

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