We are afraid to take the leap out of the life we know and into the life that is made to fit us so much better. We become trapped in the idea that there is only one way, one option, one normal despite the fact that the one way we think is the only way completely paralyzes us.
It has been 7 years that I have been fighting against a school system who never enforced or followed through on my sons accommodations. I have barely survived year after year as the people who were supposed to support my son and family did nothing but destroy us and my faith in any good coming from a school. The stress and anxiety and panic attack’s that we have had to endure have been tough growing pains but today I leave it all behind as we venture into the new normal of charter school. As I sit here tonight, the relief I feel that we are done dealing with the disaster traditional public school has become, leaves me with a peace I have not known for quite some time. No more emails unanswered. No more waiting weeks for a single assignment to be graded. No more meetings of empty promises and wasted days. We are done and never looking back.
Do not suffer on a path if you have another option. Do not try and fit yourself into a box you could never fit into to. If something isn’t working, do something different. My only regret is that it took me so long but I have a feeling next year will be one of the calmest and happiest years we’ve had in a long time. We are not meant to struggle or be miserable. There is always a way out and a new door that will lead to a life that is so much better. The door is open. All you have to do is walk on through. I hope to see you on the other side.
Life has a funny way of teaching me some hard lessons. Earlier today I wrote about having a foundation on rock or sand. It seemed like there was only one obvious choice as I wrote the words but I’ve spent most of the night choking on them. I think we have to come to an agreement on certain things. We all have those situations or people who trigger us in the worst ways. We may think we are prepared to stand strong through the storm but there’s always that one thing that can knock us off balance. It took me the whole day to finally stand firm and say no way, not again. I will be grateful in spite of this circumstance, I will be happy regardless of how this old wound encourages me to bleed. We have to make a conscious decision not to be overcome by the dark cloud that looms around waiting to catch us off guard.
Today is a reminder that you will stumble but don’t you dare let that lead to a full on fall. Know when it’s time to ground yourself and redirect your mind before it gets caught up in something that really does not matter. It may seem like a big deal in the moment but in the span of a lifetime, is it really worth the shaking you felt in your knees? You are an overcomer. One little mishap will never define you and you are not a victim of any circumstance. Come back into focus and you will realign to perfect balance. The sky is not falling so do not be fooled by a silly mirage.
I read the stories on social media of objects, signs, people and differences of opinion that send some people straight to crazy. I can’t help but wonder how they would withstand some real trauma up against them in real life. Now is the best time to ask yourself, what is your foundation? Have you built your house on rock or sand and are you ready to face the consequence when real trouble threatens to tear you down? If you crumble at the idea of things what in the world will you do when a real threat stares you in the face? It’s time to get real about who we’ve become as a nation, as a family, as individuals. Will you sink or stand? Time to decide.