Better Days Are Coming

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How did I not see it? I was retreating further and further into my safe space. The further I could escape from people, the better I felt. It didn’t take long before I was completely isolated and sinking into the depths of depression. I stopped trusting others and I put up a wall of defense so strong that no one would ever be able to hurt me again. I thought all people were alike. I had been tired of being tossed aside like a discarded piece of trash because I didn’t measure up to somebody’s standards. My mantra became, no one will ever have the power to hurt me again.

For as long as I can remember I have been brutally honest and transparent. Somehow that was the very thing that backfired on me time and time again. Instead of support, people would mock me and look down on me. I was done. For years I prayed that God would lead me to a tribe of woman. I needed a safe place to land and people I could trust but where were they? On September 29th, 2018 God answered my prayer. As I stumbled into a fundraiser in Edmond Oklahoma, I witnessed a group of women who were the real deal. Even my daughter said, mom I think this may be the tribe you’ve been looking for. Beautiful Restoration is their name and their love, support and kindness have pulled me out of the depths of despair.

I am here to remind you that God still answers prayers. There are amazing friends out there waiting to meet you and isolation is never the answer. Step out in faith and trust that there is a plan for your life. My life looks so different now than it did 10 months ago. I have hope, confidence and a real excitement about what is still ahead of me. Never give up. Your dream for a better life could be a day away. It’s coming. Wait for it excitedly.

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2 thoughts on “Better Days Are Coming

  1. drnjbmd

    This is wonderful. I am so happy. I have to retreat into my safe space but I ask God not to let me sink too low as I heal. God has always provided for me and I trust that my strength will be there for my students, patients, and those I love. This was great to read.

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