I remember a time when I would wake up feeling absolute dread for what was about to come. I waited hour by hour for the ball to drop and when it finally did, there was no surprise. I decided I couldn’t live that way anymore and I vowed to change my thoughts and start expecting something amazing instead of the worst possible outcome. It took time and discipline but I celebrated the welcome change. Now I wake up excited and feel grateful for the opportunity to experience another day. I allow myself to slow down and really take in the little things that inspire me and I leave the things that drain me behind. I just didn’t notice the blessings before. I was so caught up in fear and dread of my own making that I lost sight of the good right there in front of me all along.
Today, celebrate the little things. Give anything positive focused attention and repeat these words throughout the day, today will be amazing. Do it for a week and see if you notice a difference. I am betting you will. No go out and have an amazing day!
When I look back on my life a year ago, I am moved to tears by the gratitude I feel for some much needed change. For years I took a backseat in my own life. I accepted the circumstances and allowed myself to play the victim. At some point, I knew enough was enough and every intention and choice I made purposefully moved my life in a different direction. I am beyond happy now. Until I could picture myself feeling elated and peaceful, there was no way I would bring that image into reality. I had to want it enough to believe it was possible which then led me to find a way to make it possible.
Remember, where and who you are today will not be the same as where and who you will be a day or even a year from now unless you are too afraid to make a move. The same behavior and repetitive negative thoughts will only lead you down the same road. If you want to explore new, exciting ground then you have to take the first step in a different direction. Don’t wait any longer. Do it today!
Never let someone’s darkness snuff out your light. Shine on.
Sometimes life packs some pretty hard punches. I can go along minding my own business and out of nowhere I take a right hook to the face. I can’t escape them. I can’t hide or duck or dodge what I don’t even know is coming. I am exposed, sticking my face out there, inviting to be completely knocked out. Some days I can escape the blows and bruises and other days I wear the pain like armor all over my face. It’s hard to get up when all I want to do is lay down and say I’m done, no more, enough. I reach that point where I grow tired and all I want to do is plan my escape. Then that quiet voice whispers to me, “you are tougher than you think.” Each wound is a reminder I will not be defeated. My pride and my hope can be shattered but my spirit will not be broken. That voice whispers one last time, “You’ve got this, I promise”. I hold my head high and put one foot in front of the other as I remember to take one step at a time.
Today is Monday. My mantra is whatever happens, happens.
This morning didn’t go as planned. I had to unexpectedly drive my son to school and my husbands truck wouldn’t start again. I could’ve reacted with anger and frustration and displaced it onto everyone involved or I could simply not judge any of it repeating the mantra above. Whatever happens, happens.
Regardless of how much I worry or how much I plan, I have absolutely no knowledge or control over what the day will bring. When I look around me, I see people completely freaking out over perceived threats. It is turning their lives around and completely disrupting their functioning in life. What a terrible way to spend the only time I have. I have to learn from their mistakes and simply learn to take life as it comes with the courage to rise above dreading what may or may not be. Fear is a terrible thing but it can cause us to do two different things, realize there is nothing to fear but fear itself or keep us shaking in a corner waiting for a ball to drop that isn’t even real. We all have to decide for ourselves. As for me, I’m going to take the “let’s just wait and see approach”. It won’t be easy but sometimes retraining the mind is a necessary thing.
I put so much time and effort into writing a post this morning. All of a sudden the site crashed and that post I worked so hard on was gone. I am trying my best to stop reacting to everything that happens and choose how I respond. I could throw a fit and frantically try to write the post again or I can simply say, oh well and move on. I have to stop believing that bad things always happen to me and remember that sometimes things happen. It has nothing to do with me. The world is actually NOT conspiring against me even if I want to believe it is. This is a reminder that sh!$ happens. You can either lie down and roll around in it or step over it and move on. I say move on. Happy Monday!
Headway is a beautiful thing, especially when it comes to watching my children grow in leaps and bounds. I think I have officially survived the worst of the teenage years when it comes to my daughter. I sat back and watched painfully as her attitude and work ethic became more of a hindrance than a positive trait. Lately though, something magical has been happening. She is smiling more and the amount of dedication she has been putting into her school work and studies is admirable and her grades are the best payoff of all. I’ve mentioned that she is a swimmer. Her best stroke is the 100 fly but she has refused to do the 200 fly the last few years because well, it requires pain, hard work and physical along with mental exhaustion. Her coach put her in that event today. I gave her permission to scratch because I didn’t want to hear the complaining. She got up and left at 6:10 and almost seemed to be excited to be going. Not only did she drop ten seconds and make it to finals, she is actually going back to swim it again.
To all you parents who have lost hope, the teenage years are hard. Just when you feel like giving up hope, something wonderful changes overnight. We just have to trust that those selfish, bad attitude teens will turn around and if you’re patient enough, when you least expect it, they probably will. Here’s to a positive moment in parenting. Cheers!