I have been blessed beyond belief and am fortunate enough to have just wrapped up my 46th Christmas. Each year that goes rushing by puts one thing in perspective more than everything else. The greatest gift we could ever be given is time. As each year comes to a close, I force myself to answer the same, simple question. How did you spend the time you were given this year? Last year my answer felt like a physical blow to the place that hurts the most. I spent an entire year wrapped up in a situation that brought nothing but pain, anxiety and severe depression. I had lost myself and I vowed to find my way back to the light inside of me. It had grown dim but I knew it was still there buried beneath the baggage I continued to carry. Put it down Kim and leave it behind. Stop carrying the things that cause you pain. That is what I told myself. I realized that there would be times I felt uncomfortable because I would have no control over a situation I didn’t want to be in so I had to learn to be happy in spite of whatever was going on. I have come a long way but I still have so far to go.
As I look back at this Christmas, I have a clear picture that comes to mind that warms my heart beyond belief. I picture my father sitting in his chair and my mother opposite him on the couch. I am beyond grateful for the gifts they have given me and now more than ever I cherish the one thing they have given to all of us even when they didn’t have another single thing to give…their time. Whether they suffer from broken bones, their own ailments and disease, they are always there to give more than they have, do more than they can and make time in a world where time is surely squandered a little more each passing day. I feel blessed to carry this gratitude into the new year and that I have been given the greatest gift of all, two amazing parents who have taught me that time can be wasted or used in a way that can be so precious. This year I vow to cherish each moment I am given and to use that time to focus on my blessings. I am committed to remembering that each year, each one of us is guaranteed a little less time. Sometimes we forget. We only see what we allow ourselves to look for and this year I hope to look for all that is good. Happy New Year and God bless!
When I look back on my life a year ago, I am moved to tears by the gratitude I feel for some much needed change. For years I took a backseat in my own life. I accepted the circumstances and allowed myself to play the victim. At some point, I knew enough was enough and every intention and choice I made purposefully moved my life in a different direction. I am beyond happy now. Until I could picture myself feeling elated and peaceful, there was no way I would bring that image into reality. I had to want it enough to believe it was possible which then led me to find a way to make it possible.
Remember, where and who you are today will not be the same as where and who you will be a day or even a year from now unless you are too afraid to make a move. The same behavior and repetitive negative thoughts will only lead you down the same road. If you want to explore new, exciting ground then you have to take the first step in a different direction. Don’t wait any longer. Do it today!
They say thoughts become things. There is one thought that has changed the way I view my life and the people in it. Not long ago, I was obsessed over what could go wrong. My panic and anxiety were stemming from the anticipation of when and where the ball would drop. It was robbing me of the present moment and eliminating any chance of peace and happiness I had. I started actively focusing on my thoughts. It became clear in a short amount of time, why I was in the state I was stuck in and I committed to changing my inner dialogue. Once I realized I had a choice, that choice became clear. I could focus on what was wrong or I could focus on and celebrate what was right. Slowly but surely, my anxiety disappeared and I started to find joy again in the little things. I also learned to surrender what I could not control and embrace the things I DID have the control to change. My thinking is far from perfect but its improving steadily every day. I am grateful for my openness toward change. Change is the one thing we can count on so why not welcome it right? Remember to choose your thoughts carefully. They really do matter.
This is the captain speaking. Buckle up while I put the plane on autopilot. Let’s just see where she goes today.
Today I decided to take some time out to just be. As I sat on my pool float, I realized the gift in knowing I could rise above whatever I imagined lurked below. When the world gets ugly and people make lists of their demands and what offends them, just float. As I felt the sun on my face and the wind in my hair, the power of intention and gratitude became apparently clear. We absolutely get more of what we focus on so it seems so simple to ask the one question that will make a major impact on what you experience in your life. So what do you want more of? I want more peace, more blessings, more calm and an endless list of things to be grateful for. Remember you can sink or float. I choose float.
I hope something wonderful happens for each one of us today. Expect happiness. Look for kindness. The world is a wonderful place when you focus on the good. Remember, we get more of what we focus on. Choose wisely.
I think I’ve decided you can’t fix stupid. You can’t reason with it, change it or even influence it. Much of what is going on in our simple little world is just plain stupid. We say whatever feels like rolling off our tongue, we insult and demean with no consideration of who is on the receiving end. We spew our opinions as if they hold more value than anyone else’s. It’s disheartening to watch. I feel I have so little power as I sadly watch humanity, respect and civility self destruct. My prayer is simple. Raise me up above the petty nonsense that destroys relationships and even lives. Raise me up above the need to be right or louder or better or smarter. Humble me to know my place in this world is not less or more important than anyone else’s. Help me hang on a little bit longer and share whatever I have left to give. Help me shine and be a beacon of light in a world where the light is sometimes fading and growing dim. Help me be a better person each and everyday. That is my purpose. That is my journey.