Thoughts On A Page

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It’s been a day. I feel drained. Sometimes life takes more out of me than I’m able to give. I feel deeply on a ridiculous level. When I’m mad, I am really mad. When I am excited, I’m bouncing off the walls. I am one extreme or another, one of the reasons I fight so hard to find some kind of balance. When I’m off, I’m completely off and when life it good, it’s fantastic. Summer has thrown me off a bit. It’s time to get back up and take those baby steps toward finding what it is I am meant to do. I think I’m coming closer, I just can’t see it clearly yet. One day at a time. One step at a time. My first stop when the kids go back to school will be yoga. It is quiet there, welcoming, a place I can freely be to explore the things I once never imagined possible. A place that reminds me to continue to love the unlovable and be kind to the ones most would consider undeserving. A reminder to keep my heart open and continue to focus on what really matters instead of being clouded by the things that can blur my view. It is a place that reminds me everyone matters and most importantly, I matter. I have a job to do in this short life span of mine and it’s time to get back around to doing it.

Namaste

There Is Only One Today

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Well, this is it! The last weekend before school gets off to a chaotic start. One thing I love most about summer is certainly not the intense heat we’ve been having week after week. It’s not the daily ice cream cones or even firing up the grill almost every night. So, what is it then?

 I am the kind of person that does not like to be tied down to a schedule. I love the freedom to pick and choose how I spend every moment of the day instead of being prisoner to a calendar that is always in conflict with my own needs and desires. We have to go here tonight and don’t forget Wednesday night we have to go… There is no end, just beginning after beginning of something else we have to do.

So, how am I going to spend this last glorious weekend before the circus begins again? However I want too. Yes, I will miss you summer! I will miss your freedom, your lazy days and the opportunity to sleep in. Today though, I will not think about tomorrow or next week. I will allow myself to just be here now, today, in this moment that will never come again. How will you spend the weekend?

It’s Okay Mom, It’s Only School 

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Oh my God, is school really starting next week? What if the new teachers are terrible? What if the class load is just too much? What if my kid doesn’t make the team?

This is what millions of mothers are probably thinking these days. We love to worry, it’s in our nature. Why is it, there is so much panic as our kids go back to school? I say, what if this is the best year yet? What if the kids teachers are exactly who they need? It’s hard not to get caught up in the rush of worry that spreads like wildfire as the days of summer vacation wind down and our need to worry about what might happen winds up. Leave it alone. Don’t dwell on the what ifs that cause you to lose hours of sleep. Kids are so much tougher than we give them credit for and if they aren’t losing sleep, why should we? Take a deep breath. It’s just another new year of school. It’s going to be fine, just wait and see.

Summertime

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What do you love most about summertime? For me it’s the reprieve of a hectic schedule. I love looking outside and seeing teenagers playfully hanging out at the pool. I love beautiful sunsets and cool nights and eating outdoors. I love the smell of burgers, steaks and dogs cooking on the grill. I love fresh melon and corn on the cob and lazy afternoons spent floating in the pool. I love the sound of lawnmowers and watching for new blooms on my favorite rose bush. I love festivals and outdoor music events while sitting on a wooden deck and drinking my favorite frozen drink. I love the sunshine and drive in movies and everything else in between. What is your favorite part of summer? I’d love to hear about it.