I’ve been recognizing the need to just walk away. I mentioned earlier my new task of unbecoming who I am. There comes a time when you have to throw in the towel and step away. I am quiet by nature. I am one with the quiet and noise makes me feel absolutely crazy inside. I realized after spending too much time on homework once again, the incessant amount of noise my son makes while attempting to do work is excruciating for me. Part of me knows all too well that if he would just sit quietly and do the work, it would take him a lot less time. He just doesn’t stop. If he’s not humming or singing then he’s probably talking out loud to himself. I decided to go for a short walk just to get away from the noise. I got about three houses down when I heard the screaming. There is a boy, high school age, who lives in that house. He too is always making noise. I realize even though we are all different, we each have a unique set of challenges. The boy is autistic and I often see and hear him standing by his mailbox waiting for the bus. He screams all day long and he always seems to be outside. It’s easy to think we are the only one in the world who gets frustrated or has to deal with problems but I was reminded tonight, that’s just not true. The important thing is how we deal with those problems. We can react the same way day after day or we can find a new solution along with some healthy coping mechanisms. Stepping away helps to see the turmoil that is going on inside. Sometimes it’s necessary to be a spectator in your own life. Only by standing to the side and observing from a distance can we really get a glimpse of the whole picture. There are some things we cannot change. We cannot fix everything we think needs fixing because to someone else, it may appear that nothing was ever really broken. So my advice tonight is that when you are feeling like you don’t have any control, step away and go for a walk. Put some distance between you and whatever it is that is driving you crazy. Give yourself permission to take a break and breathe in calm and exhale the rest. You are stronger than you think so start thinking differently.
So I had no idea what to write about today since the letter for the A to Z challenge is W but lucky enough, the words fell into place. One thing I realized today is that when you have been emotionally asleep for quite a while, walking through Vegas is just the place to wake you up. The sights, the sounds, the people watching are really invigorating. I took off on my own this morning exploring and checking things out. I wondered how different this Monday would feel if I was at home doing the same old same old. I know I’ve said this before but it is worth saying again. It is so important to change things up and not fall into the trap of repeating the same day over and over again. It is so amazing to have something on your calendar to look forward to and traveling makes everyone feel good. Just being somewhere else can leave you feeling so free, inspired, rejuvenated, healed. So, walking really is good for the soul and when you take a brisk walk in Vegas on a cool morning before the crowds hit the streets, there really is nothing better.
Life is a journey. Sometimes we start out and wander off the path. Smooth turns rough and bumpy beneath our feet. Our shoes wear out and our feet start to bleed but we keep on walking because that’s what we do. Eventually, we stand in the place we started, and we know we are someone new. We are ready to take another lap but we are confident this time, more prepared. We are familiar with the road and we navigate our path better than ever before. The bumps and potholes are still there but now we make the choice to avoid them. We go round and round until one day we get it just right. What a beautiful day that is when everything finally comes full circle.