I am reminded today not to look back. I don’t live there anymore and nothing good could come from glancing over my shoulder. I must look in the direction I want to go and put one foot in front of the other even if it’s only a baby step at a time. I don’t have time for regrets. I don’t have the energy to nurse the old wounds that are ready and willing to rip wide open if I give them enough attention. I cannot enjoy today if I am constantly traveling back to yesterday. Right now I am at peace as I sit here on this beach and feel the waves washing over my feet. My heart is full as the sound of the waves keeps me grounded in the here and now. It is well with my soul and I am grateful for this moment. Eyes forward to the direction I am going…
I’m sitting here watching the waves gracefully roll on the shore and effortlessly return back to where they started. Ebb and flow, the natural way things are meant to be. We cannot force the water to stay one place or the other, it is constantly changing and constantly flowing, but it doesn’t stop us from trying to be in control. I watch as young boys run into the water. There bodies collide with the wave and the force of the collision knocks them down. That’s what happens when we go against the current, when we decide to fight what is and inflict our own will. We can spend our whole lives fighting to swim upstream. Eventually , when we become tired enough, we lose the fight and collapse in exhaustion. Eventually, our need to control and manipulate becomes lost somewhere in the years we will never get back. We bitch and complain about things instead of embracing the inevitable and unavoidable change that no place or person will ever be strong enough to stop.
Be like water. Flow. Enjoy your life. Embrace the change. Surrender to each moment and allow it all to just pass through. Go where the wind blows and eventually you will end up exactly where you want to be.
Today I had a ton of time to think. I was sitting on a large porch eating breakfast by myself. The breeze and the view were amazing. I watched as the wind gently ruffled the palm trees. I enjoyed the quiet calm of the waves and how they gracefully fell against the rocks. I sat there thinking that I should do this more often. It’s nice to look up for a change. We all should. How often do you sit still and just look at the beauty all around you? How many times do you sit in a rocking chair and spend several minutes just rocking? We rush, we run, we over schedule and we are missing the really special moments that give us a chance to reconnect with who we really are. The me who is more than the thinker, the doer. The me that feels connected to each and every wave and every grain of sand. The me who just watches and breathes and feels gratitude for these moments, that once in a while, I finally pause long enough to enjoy.