Light Up The World


Do not be changed by the world but rather be the change it so desperately needs. Do not just go to church but be the church by spreading your love and offering grace every place you go. Do not be ashamed of who you are, but be unapologetically you never backing down from the unique person you’ve become. Do not be an echo but a strong voice that does not waiver or shake when the worldly view differs so far from your own. Do not be silent and stand strong in the face of pointing out what is right and what is so horribly wrong. You have the power to change lives so do not let anyone tell you that there isn’t a way. Do not snuff out the light but be a lamp so bright it will light up the world.

Will You Join My Movement?


As one week comes to a close and another begins, my intention is to send echoes of peace and acceptance out into the world. Everytime I come in contact with someone, whether it be in person or through social media, I will silently wish them peace and love. We need more of that out there. Will anyone join me? Let’s start our own movement in these difficult days and months ahead. 

What Do YOU Think?


I went to see Martian again last night. I know you are probably thinking I am a bit obsessive when it comes to seeing movies these days but that seems to be the way I roll. Most things are feast, famine or nonexistent in my life. It is what it is. 

On the way home, I couldn’t help but think how different the world would be if we were not continuously trying to one up one another but rather working for a common purpose. We work  to find the first cure, we compete to send the first astronaut to the latest, most popular area of space. We strive to complete the most destructive weapon but imagine if every country worked together to make the world a better place for everyone? Consider what would happen if we all shared knowledge and technological advances and worked side by side to make amazing things happen. Don’t you think that is the way it was supposed to be? I really think it’s a shame that we are more selfish than selfless. Too bad nobody cares what I think. I can’t help but wonder though. Maybe competition isn’t so great after all.

Living With Fear


How will we survive in a world we are growing to fear? There is so much more to worry about today than when I was a kid. The people have changed, the world has changed but I have not changed. I will never let what is happening on the outside seep in and poison what is on the inside. Everyday I will make a choice to choose love and hope and kindness and not be transformed by the hate and fear. I will live as if this day may be my last because in all reality, it just may be. Don’t let fear stop you from living your life. In fact, the best way to beat all the evil going on around you is to do just that, keep on living, keep on smiling and keep on loving.

When the World Leaks In…


As I woke up to complete chaos, I pondered, how in the world do I keep the crazy going on all around me outside of me? How do I remain in a state of inner peace when I am being shot in the head by gigantic spitballs by the enormous straws aimed directly for me surrounding me from every angle? It has been a question I have not been able to find an answer to, at least if I am being honest. Sure I go to yoga and I meditate and I blog and take time for myself but time has made me a much weaker target. I used to be really strong, able to let most things roll off my back, but now I am weak. As much as I hate to admit it, I can feel the foundation crumbling under my feet. How can I remain grounded when the ground is breaking up from underneath me? There must be a hole in me someplace where the outer world leaks directly into my inner world. That place that was once safe and private has become exposed to the toxic stress of the outside world. And how does it make me feel? Sick and toxic on the inside too. 

My mantra for today:

As I breathe in and out, I am reminded to let everything pass through me. I will not hold onto my breath or anything else I am faced with today. I am strong and this moment will be much different from the next one. Breathe and let it go with each breath.

Problem or Solution?


One of the reasons I believe I suffer from depression is because I feel so deeply with my own heart. I was born with so much empathy and compassion for other people that sometimes it almost destroys me from the inside out. I have to be honest. I am not uninformed but sometimes I cannot stand to watch the news. Today, as I looked at the pictures of these tiny bodies being washed up on shore, it was like stabbing a knife into the center of my heart. Having children of my own, I can hardly tolerate the thought of losing them. We try and provide the best life for our family and sometimes that means putting them at the greatest risk. I cried a few tears. I’m not ashamed to feel. I cried a tear for every body lost in that water and even more for those young boys I saw being carried out of the water. I sat a few minutes in my own pain, saddened by what parts of our world are becoming. It is our world. We have to be accountable for what becomes of it. We have to do our part to spread humanity and the reminder that we are all so deeply connected. We are in one family at war with each other and lives are being destroyed one day at a time. Hope is being lost, spirits becoming forever broken. We can do better than this. We have to. I am a healer by nature. I want to bring more empathy and kindness into the world. Every little bit changes the world for the better. Oh, those pictures…. It is so hard to look but even harder to look away.

Why are we here? Why do we walk through the valley of life? Is it to own nice things? Is it to have an important job and be better than the person standing to our right and left? Is it to teach people a lesson and to criticize, berate and torture the people we are supposed to love. Is it to carry anger and then project that anger onto everyone around us while we wallow in our own hate? Is it to judge and fight and be selfish in every way? I say we are here to love. We are here to be love in every single way imaginable. We live this life to do love, bring love, spread love and experience love. Will we ever get it right?

Don’t be so concerned with everyone else. You cannot change them. That is not your job. It is your job however to deal with your own stuff until you can finally get your heart in the right place. If you walk around and you do not feel love towards other people, it’s time you admit you are part of the problem. My question is, will you do what you can to turn things around? Will you be part of the solution?

Let’s Debate This


I promise this post will not be political but I do need to get something off my chest about the debate last night. As I watched the response of the people on Twitter and Facebook, my heart sank. This was a serious introduction to someone who very well might be our next president. I am starting to think that there are a growing number of Americans who come off as being too immature to actually vote. It was disheartening to watch the words appear with person after person mocking the physical appearance of candidates. Their personal insults, finger pointing and flaw broadcasting were enough to make me feel a little ill. Imagine if the people took this serious enough to stop acting like school yard children and listen enough to identity with anyone’s character. Imagine if people went into this looking to find something positive about the people on stage. Maybe if we talked about who is the most respectable, who commands the stage in a way that exudes leadership and makes America look intelligent, level headed, responsible, poised, then maybe we would actually elect a president who has what it takes to take this country to the next level. How could we possibly choose someone like that when the people voting are name calling, knocking, demeaning, ridiculing and mocking someone who may be the next leader of our country? How do we trust people who lack self control and class to choose a classy, admirable president to serve our people? I am saddened and distraught about the enthusiasm to rip people apart on a daily basis. The comments about the commentators fake tan and cheesy hair extensions dominated a large part of the conversation. Seriously, who do we think we are, what kind of pompous, cruel, immature culture have we become that instead of listening about real issues, we spend time poking fun and purposely humiliating fellow human beings?

I am not a perfect person but I have lived long enough to know that most people deserve our respect. I have learned that the world does more than its share of knocking people down and it is our responsibility to lift people up. I have learned to treat people with respect to counteract the lack of respect I continue to see. I look for the positive because there is way too much negativity in the world. I educate myself the best I can to battle all the stupidity and foolish behavior that is more contagious than the common cold. We are idolizing the wrong people. We are following the wrong behavior. We are striving to be the wrong kind of people. We find dehumanizing admirable and entertaining. We cheer for the bully’s instead of protecting the victims. We accept lying and corrupt behavior from the people who are supposed to be our leaders. We admire leaders who are pompous and arrogant and we make fun of the ones who speak respectfully and kindly. We are giving the worst qualities our most valuable support and attention. 

I wonder if the people who spent two hours knocking the candidates will ever wonder how small they are? Do they even care? I do because I think it’s time for Americans to show a little seriousness, respect, and most importantly a lot more class. How can we trust these people to elect someone who possesses all of the qualities to lead this country and to be an example to others if the people voting do not identify with these qualities as well? I must say I am embarrassed frequently by people’s behavior these days. It’s no wonder this world is heading down the path it is on. That is not to say I think I’m better. I just try my best to act better and to be the change I am desperate to see in this collapsing world. Being disrespectful, having disgraceful behavior, speaking without filters, and bullying are becoming increasingly popular as time goes on. We need to get our act together and stop idolizing poor behavior. That’s just my two cents. What do you think? Do you agree or disagree?

My Reaction to American Sniper


It was with a very heavy heart that I watched American Sniper today. To take another’s life is incomprehensible to me. I was raised to value human life and to respect and honor the lives of others. The sad reality is we live in a world that is plagued by hate. We fight, we kill, we destroy what was never ours to take. Someone has to do it. Someone has to protect us from the evil that hides quietly around the next corner. Hatred infects those who experience it. It makes people do what does not feel good to the soul. When our actions and souls intentions are not aligned, we are bombarded with horrific internal struggle. We are all the same. We breath the same air and the same blood is running through our veins. We are love and when we act from a different place or see life as a different place, our souls are slowly weighed down with guilt and dread. The world becomes a very dark place and we are suffocated by the darkness that creeps into our own minds. When will we grasp the concept, what I wish for you, I wish for myself? What I do to others, I do to myself. We are all one, a connection that cannot be broken by a border, a country or a senseless war. We are brothers and must start treating each other as such. My heart screams out in pain over what we have become. We are like savages, shooting each other and hunting each other down like we are some type of animal. Sacrificing ourselves by wearing a bomb on our body to take the lives of many at the same time and in the name of….I can’t even write the word.

I am not in any way disrespecting our military or the men and woman who put their lives on the line to protect their country each and every day. We cannot just sit back like sitting ducks while we are under attack. I guess what I struggle with most is admitting to myself that it will never stop. What type of devastation would bring people to their knees and open up their hearts to see each other as human beings? I will not participate in the worldly hate.
I will do my part, the best I can to promote, share and be love. I will quietly remind myself we are all made of love and light. Underneath the behavior and the twisted minds, we are all the same. How does ones heart rot out the love? How does ones heart turn so cold that the only thing it feels leads to the destruction of what our lives were meant to be?

I am far from perfect but I believe in the cause and will vow to do my best. Will you join me in my crusade? Will you be a soldier of peace and love? Will you stand shoulder to shoulder and hold my hand regardless of your religion or color of your skin? Will you stop reinforcing all the things that make us different and start reinforcing what makes us the same? If you use color of skin, religion, the country you are from, the God you believe in to put yourself in a sub group than you have promoted the great divide. Take responsibility and be accountable for the hate in our beautiful world. Try something new like forgiveness and letting go and find something the same about the person standing next to you. I don’t care what has happened in the past. Use that as an excuse if you wish but I will not. Every day is a new day to start again and if you go through the motions recreating yesterday then you will continue to bring the past into today and there will never be a chance for a better future. You are the reason. Choose better, do better, be smarter than the person you were yesterday. Learn and grow and watch the world change slowly as each heart and mind slowly make a choice to live a different way. Can we stand together while respecting each other enough to have individual beliefs and our own unique idea of God? Can we start someplace small and take baby steps until we learn to walk together as one?